It’s becoming silly. I think I’m becoming nocturnal. Came back finding out that today wasn’t an actual deadline but a drop in session. However I went into uni early to go to PAL and freaked out a tad. For a start I couldn’t find them and I was freaking out to my coursemates and I think they think I’m going wild. Maybe I am. Maybe I always was? However spoke to  my PAL leader/buddy and it’s nice cause we can relate to each other lots even though I would say were different. Going back to the point she helped me lots. Really needed that wee chat and I’ve decided I’m not switching course. Ha ! Actually that issue I don’t think I’ve rambled about on tumblr but I was thinking of switching course because he workload and just I feel inadequate but J is gonna help me and I just need to have a little faith in myself I guess. I pray that God can give me more confidence in my work. The maths and physics should come on its own accord I guess.. and yeah I think I’ll always be average at sketching I just need to get to that point. Right nowI feel I’m floating below. On an encouraging note we got our feedback sheets for last semester’s work. I passed everything and got a really high first in one aspect which I’m super proud of cause I did not sleep for 48+ hours. No joke. It was disgusting. 

But going back to today after speaking to J I also talked to my tutor. I was so terrified in telling him how far behind I was but he gave me a few tips and reassured me I could draw and well let’s just say he’s not one to bullsh*t so if he thinks I’ve got potential I’m kinda gonna have to believe him. I guess…

Made a Road to Success plan for the rest of the week for C and T and I. Bless them. They are like out of my league but it’s so sweet of them to be worried for me and helpful. Well C is. T is just blunt but that’s him I guess and I know he means well.

Left to go back to my accom to work. Caught the U3 and got back at coming up to 4pm. Made a late lunch and showered. Did a little work and got super tired. So I took a nap =.=”

Spoke to boo for a bit and now I need to work some more… I love how people say 1st year is easy… They clearly aren’t doing a design course or I don’t know Medicine? Pharmacy? (What do these people do?!?!!?!? lol) Work hard fellow design kids.. we can do this !

Ps: 2days ! <3