Today is Chinese New Year or actually it’s the last minute of CNY seeing as it’s 23:59 right now but I thought I’d be sad and upset because I wasn’t with my family and I wasn’t doing anything spectacular to celebrate but I feel content, not quite happy but definitely content. I got to speak to mum, dad and boo and had a lovely game of scrabble with the boyfriend. 

But CNY; it’s a chance to start anew seeing as New Year’s Resolutions never totally go well. It’s my chance to turn over a new leaf and start fresh.

This time hopefully it’ll stick !

i love being home eating homecooked food made by my mommy.

i love chatting to mum and dad about life.

i love hanging out with boo. having our “dmc(s)”. and our not so “dmc(s)”.

i love hanging out with my hubby and having dinema and spending time with his famfam.

and i love reading. 

i’m okay. ^w^ cos i have figured the more stressed you are the less productive you are.. well i am anyways.. cos all i think is:

“OMD ! i am so stressed EUGHHHHHHHH ! fajkhsdjgas dhau~!@$£dsj”

however i am at my optimum when angry pahahahahaha ! weird. but i work quite well in happy mode too !

probably cos sometimes i’d rather revise to get away from it all.. all the drama and cos all my problems seem juvenile if you put it in the bigger picture and i feel like i have gotten to the stage in life that it would be silly if i cared eek !

sure i am stressed by silly resits and silly coursework deadlines. on top of that preparation for interviews and actually producing a portfolio for portfolio interview however i’m not stressed. well not as stressed as i should be.. would be say this time last year? i’m much happier nowadays and it’s probably cos of you ;) and cos nearly all aspects of my life have changed not all for the better but i’m grateful for how things are turning out.   

cos looking back i know i have to be grateful for what i have right now.. right this moment and not look at what i don’t have and focus on the problems and massive hurdles ahead.. focus on them but not to make it my main focus cos enjoying the journey towards it is what makes life worthwhile right?

i don’t want to be old, wrinkly and ugly and look back and regret that i didn’t appreciate the tiny things. i want to look back and be like damnnnnnnnnnn i lived. even though right now.. sometimes it doesn’t feel like i’m having the time of my life i think remembering that there is always someone who has bigger problems and worries just diminishes mine and praying for them seems more worthwhile than it all just being about me. 

and now we cue Miley Cyrus’ “The Climb” har har 

soz for the cheeesefest~