realisation …

where the hull did all the time go? why didn’t i work harder during my 3weeks home? instead of faffing about i could be feeling prepared opposed to feeling rather awful. what if i do bad and because of this one exam i fail the module and then in turn fail the year. now that, that would be a mockery and it’s not gonna happen. it can’t

maybe i’m focusing too much on this assignment but it’s a third of the module in which i’m doing not so great in this semester. i need to do well to pull my marks up. right? but then again this module is what 30 credits ie 15 this semester ie 5 credits. is 5 credits that important? i think so. esp. since i’ve probs got 3 out of the ten in the prior. gahhhhhhhhhh~

if only i didn’t have to pass the exam and just get an average of 40%. then i’d be laughing but unfortunately the case isn’t in my favor.

now back to CAD-ing like the nerd i’ve properly become ! 

It’s becoming silly. I think I’m becoming nocturnal. Came back finding out that today wasn’t an actual deadline but a drop in session. However I went into uni early to go to PAL and freaked out a tad. For a start I couldn’t find them and I was freaking out to my coursemates and I think they think I’m going wild. Maybe I am. Maybe I always was? However spoke to  my PAL leader/buddy and it’s nice cause we can relate to each other lots even though I would say were different. Going back to the point she helped me lots. Really needed that wee chat and I’ve decided I’m not switching course. Ha ! Actually that issue I don’t think I’ve rambled about on tumblr but I was thinking of switching course because he workload and just I feel inadequate but J is gonna help me and I just need to have a little faith in myself I guess. I pray that God can give me more confidence in my work. The maths and physics should come on its own accord I guess.. and yeah I think I’ll always be average at sketching I just need to get to that point. Right nowI feel I’m floating below. On an encouraging note we got our feedback sheets for last semester’s work. I passed everything and got a really high first in one aspect which I’m super proud of cause I did not sleep for 48+ hours. No joke. It was disgusting. 

But going back to today after speaking to J I also talked to my tutor. I was so terrified in telling him how far behind I was but he gave me a few tips and reassured me I could draw and well let’s just say he’s not one to bullsh*t so if he thinks I’ve got potential I’m kinda gonna have to believe him. I guess…

Made a Road to Success plan for the rest of the week for C and T and I. Bless them. They are like out of my league but it’s so sweet of them to be worried for me and helpful. Well C is. T is just blunt but that’s him I guess and I know he means well.

Left to go back to my accom to work. Caught the U3 and got back at coming up to 4pm. Made a late lunch and showered. Did a little work and got super tired. So I took a nap =.=”

Spoke to boo for a bit and now I need to work some more… I love how people say 1st year is easy… They clearly aren’t doing a design course or I don’t know Medicine? Pharmacy? (What do these people do?!?!!?!? lol) Work hard fellow design kids.. we can do this !

Ps: 2days ! <3

“Creativity is allowing yourself to make mistakes. Design is knowing which ones to keep.” - Scott Adams 

(Source: oliverboulton)

“‘Every designers’ dirty little secret is that they copy other designers’ work. They see work they like, and they imitate it. Rather cheekily, they call this inspiration.’” - Aaron Russel

We all get stuck, no matter who we are

“We all get stuck as designers. Don’t forget that.

“No matter who you are, the number of accolades you’ve received, or the past successes you’ve had, it’s still hard. You can look at this a few ways, but I largely take comfort in it.

“Becoming a good designer is, in my mind, directly related to one’s curiosity and willingness to work. If you keep asking questions and deliberately practicing your craft, you get better. It’s that simple. So when it feels difficult and you want to scream, grab a pencil and a big blank sheet of paper, and just start drawing. With each iteration you’re closer.”
— ERIC KARJALUOTO, SMASHLAB

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