“Each relationship between two persons is absolutely unique. That is why you cannot love two people the same. It simply is not possible. You love each person differently because of who they are and the uniqueness that they draw out of you.” - William P. Young

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i woke up late and casually went to class like 40minutes or so late but it was all cool. i’m actually so fortunate to have Andy as my tutor. if it was anyone else i’d probably be too scared to turn up but it was just a chilled class really anyhow.

one thing i got from the class was that my tutor said to my friend (who is super good at the course) about my work and how i’ve really developed a style for myself which i thought was really cool. it’s hard to develop your own “style” and “identity” in design and i was kinda chuffed that on the one to one he mentioned me out of everyone to him and went on about how i’ve obviously developed a “style” yadayada…. :’)

we then all grouped up and after a bit of waiting around we got the u1 to the centre to go get ZaZa’s c: ! Charley and I had put ourselves up a target of 7 plates and i kind of got there… i was a beast and she was saying how she has found new respect for me teehee~ i love how everyone thinks i eat nothing when in fact i’m totally internally obese and i’m good with buffets…kudos to my lap sok ! my uncle taught me the art of how to pace yourself and eat your money’s worth in buffets during our many encounters in Las Vegas, Nevada lolz !

after being super gluttonous some people wanted to go into town and shop but others wanted to chill in the park. initially i was totally up for shopping (wish i went for a bit now cause i didn’t get to get my lip butters ! :c rage.com i’ve been waiting for like what 8months now? grrr…)but i ended up going to the park since it was such a beautiful day. katie, charley and i went and got blankets and i sunbathed for a bit while everyone played ball then i stupidly suggested to go into to teams. we played for a bit and per usual i got competitive…. i don’t even know how it happened but i basically fell and rolled like 3 times down the hill and banged my head and cracked my neck/shoulder/spine. my legs were green and i made a wee ladder in my tights. all was cool barr the embarrassment but my friends are cool c:

after that my head and neck just killed ! we then went to get a drink at a pub. we wanted to go to the Apple (a cider boat) but it wasn’t opened till 5pm so we went to a pub and i had a guinness being all irish-y ^ _ ^

chilled in the Apple and it was fun just chatting about i don’t even know… i had a good heart to heart with TJ which was lovely and then everyone wanted to go to a shisha bar which was all the way up the hill. but we went and it was fun but i refused to take any… i just don’t do that stuff.. some people were trying to peer pressure me into it but it was cool. my friends aren’t the type that make you feel wick if you don’t join the flow.

decided to then go home and en route we got cheesy chips ! nom.com and at the bus stop we bumped into a coursemate and his flatmates and one of them is from Belfast so that was nice c:

i walked home and now going to skype the boyfriend <3

it was a nice day ! i feel like our crew has definitely bonded more ! i’m so glad Charley and i came up with the idea ^ __ ^

“we’re popular now ! ” pahahahahahahahahahahaah~ 

Today I let myself lie in. I had sucha strange dream that I don’t even remember anymore and I knew there was no point in rushing for the next bus so I made myself a bagel with philly and watched the Ringer. Does anyone else love this show? I was so not expecting for that to happen with Juliet :o
Anywho watched that and I fixed my prototype. Did some research and by this it was 12ish so I had planned to get the 1230ish bus to be in for 1pm but I was hungry and lazy I guess but my tumtum hurt and I thought I’d try get this prototype working here so I put chicken coujons into the oven and then made myself a chicken wrap with cucumber, red peppers and lettuce covered with ceaser salad sauce it was dilish ! Also had apple and pear juice nom c: due to good food I was in a good mood!. Dressed and went to uni. I actually thought I was gonna be late but the bus was late or my clock is fast? Either or I got on with a lot of stuff to carry and I had to stand the whole way luckily it was the quick bus. Got there and T and her boy were smoking outside. She had just arrived even thought we both said we’d leave at 1230.. Psychic ! I was happy cause I knew I was behind but I thought at least I’m not alone c:
Workshop was packed ! But as time went on it began to filter. The technician leaves at 500 so I wanted to get all the parts to my real model cut out neatly with the band saw but there was no more wood so T and I had to walk all the way to N block to get it. She cut it out after taking forever to measure whilst I cut my letter ‘A’ out. Set my wood on the workbench where I was working but I needed to use the glue gun. After I don’t know how long the technician said she’s stay longer for us if we tidied up for 10mins which is fab. By this stage I wanted to drill holes into my wood for my stage/base. Turn round and my wood has gone missing :o by this point I was stressed and angry at myself I was freakking out that I’d lost it. Walked round the workshop and saw someone’s pile of parts and under it all I knew it was my wood ! Its so obvious cause its the exact half as T’s and I knew it was mine. Asked who’s stuff it was turns out to be a 2nd CPD kid. So I ask hom did you cut that out? He went red and stuttered yes. But from his reaction and his friends reaction they knew it was mine. But I didn’t wanna confront and be a bxtch I just didn’t have the energy so I just looked him up and down and went ‘riiiiiiight’ after that I had to rush over to N. Get more wood then rush back and drill before the technician leaves. Whilst drilling a heck load of smoke came out of my wood. So terrifying ! I was convinced it was gonna catch a light however it didn’t thank goodness.
Kept trying to make the mechanism work and to make the linkages we have hard copper/steel wire and it is so hard to cut with the pliers I was struggling per usual and the guilty 2nd year offered to help. I accepted and was no longer annoyed as I could tell he had a conscience and it’s not his fault. It’s being a designer and the stress of deadlines. By this point I was stuck in a rut and it just wasn’t working$ feeling stressed and emotional I went to the toilets to cool down. I was not crying in front of the boys cz firstly it would be embarrassing and secondly I’m sure they wouldn’t know what to do. Thank goodness boo has bbm. She just knows how to cheer me up and encourage me. At this point I really wanted to be like ‘fxck it’ ! Gah ! Missing her so much I wish I was there having fun :c I’m already excited for souvenirs ^^ ! By 8-9ish I kind of think I knew what was going on and I needed the fishing string. So texted C. She came and brought me lollies and jaffa cakes. I feel like she was God’s way of providing and I felt so blessed. There was no reason for her to help me but she helped me figure it out and kept me pumping and by 10h30 I had 1/3 of my mechanism and a plan to complete it. I’m just overwhelmed by her kindness. Right now I’m able to sleep comfortably as she got me an airbed and quilt and pillow as she offered me to stay in her halls. So by 12h30ish I got finished and her lovely boyfriend came down to pick me up. Been working on my progress book and now I’m gonna try and get some sleeps. Although today was completely stressful I feel happy. I felt loved by my family even thought they’re not by my side and I’m so blesssed to have such class course mates. My project really isn’t mine but an accumulation of a lot of people’s work and brains in my class. But yeah this is a long ramble and I need to wake up early to catch the bus back into the centre to get cleaned up and to pick up my research material for my progress book then be back for 9ish to print off and secure my handle. All done for the 10am deadline. Blehhhhhhhh~ I can do this ! >W

Friday I slept in and missed my lecture which wasn’t great. Tried to do some work to make up for it but mostly lazed about I guess.

That night I slept ever so restlessly and I don’t even know what time I eventually conked out. Kept waking and sleeping again eventually got up with a drained battery. Plugged it in and realised 4pm which is crazy. Plans to work and run went straight down the drain. Plus had to clean up for inspections so went and got cleaning stuff and cleaned like a housemaid. Turns out she didn’t get past level 3.

Went for food at GBK with P. Then there was the dilemma of where to go that night G and the girls decided food and a movie, twas A and the twins’ bday night out so I decided to go to the twins’ preswall and then oceana and then head over to Bunker to wish A a happy birthday. Even though I’m not fond of the place I felt obliged to make an effort due to NYRs and I bailed last week.

Met some crazy ass people. T’was rather asian invasian going on but it was nice. Everyone was tryna guess where I was from which is always hilar.

Went to Oceana but I was outta cash and had to queue forever. Then it was my turn and they sad they were outta tenners. I never drink much when I’m out due to being a feather weight so I thought a tenner would do however they were like want £20 so I was like what the heck and I’m sure I pressed yes but nothing came out so I need to check tomorrow if I got credited. bleh ~ was not happy though cause I hate not having cash on me on a night out. I feel unsafe ! Everyone was being awfully generous and offering to buy me drinks etc too which I felt bad for. Luckily they let me off for being a feather weight cause I said I’d puke haha !

Didn’t get back till 4ish cause P couldn’t walk in her super high heels and by the time we were back I wasn’t even sleepy. Tired definitely but not sleepy. So we decided to photobooth and have a slumber party and watch John Tucker Must Die.

I had every intention to get up at 10:30am regardless of sleeping at 5ish and I actually got up but when P left my 5 minutes more turned to 1.5hours. SHAME. I felt awful in being late for my Starbucks date with J but I got there at 1:30pm and I had Toffee Nut Latte with Whipped cream ! nomnomnom.

It was CNY service and it was combined service also. Praise was good and funny but good. Their enthusiasm was funny but it touched my heart. J was being naughty and making me giggle. We had a talk about Time and how we can’t look back and everything is ever changing. The reassuring thing is God’s love for us is constant. He is the only constant in this ever changing world. After there was dance performance by these mummys and then a bro and sis-in-law sang. Met a few girls and then we had yummy food. After a bit of chit chat I headed back. It was freeeeeeeezing but I enjoyed my walk strangely. 

Was s’posed to go to Nandos for the twins’ birthday dinner but I slacked too much this weekend ! I can’t focus. No ideas :c and I can’t sketch. gahhhhhhhhhhhhhh~ I was lying in bed and worrying about workload that I couldn’t sleep so now I’m gonna scribble some ideas down and try and get inspired.

If you’ve lasted this far. iheartyou.

I’ll maybe post some of the night out at a later date when D decides to put our hott ones up keke~

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